My idea for my first blog is to chronicle my first real Ramadan experiences. I've observed Ramadan in the past, but I've never taken my shahadah, nor have I fulfill all Ramadan's rules and laws. I have made intention to observe this year in hopes to bring back a spiritual awareness of Islam that I once had. I was introduced to islamic concepts via the Nation of Islam and the 5% Nation of God and Earths. I fondly remember the days when I was hungry for knowledge and had an insatiable thirst for study and spiritual discipline. However, that was in 1992, a long time ago and so much has changed in my life since then. I was in 1999 when I went uncovered after 7 years of begin wrapped and 2000 when I cut my waist length dreads. It was an evolution in my eyes. Not a backwards move, nor a rejecting of certain philosophies. I was simply growing up. Many of my peers in the 5% were not. Some had return to Christianity, others sank deeper into drugs and the increasingly popular rapper party lifestyle ever associated with the 5%. Me, I was a mother, a teacher, and more mature than I'd been in the past.
Fast forward to 2003...............After many years of searching, I finally found him......my current husband. Perfectly so, we;d gone thru similar journeys searching for Truth. He;d been raised Christian, joined the Nation of Islam, converted to Orthodox Islam, and was now self-studying as a Hebrew Israelite. Like me, he was tired of depending on so-called leaders with their mis-interpretations and backsliding ways. When we met, it was perfect. However, its been a struggle ever since to actually get on the same page spiritually. Its a continual struggle to decide under which religion, philosophy, and way of life we want to raise our family in. He's been more diligent than I and I've finally realize that I had no longer been on a active search for knowledge. I'd given up. I was stagnant. And now its time to move.
So this Ramadan I make intention to devote myself to Remembering Allah. I intend to fast and pray and allow Allah to bestow the barakah (blessings) of enlightenment onto me as he'd done once before.
Fast forward to 2003...............After many years of searching, I finally found him......my current husband. Perfectly so, we;d gone thru similar journeys searching for Truth. He;d been raised Christian, joined the Nation of Islam, converted to Orthodox Islam, and was now self-studying as a Hebrew Israelite. Like me, he was tired of depending on so-called leaders with their mis-interpretations and backsliding ways. When we met, it was perfect. However, its been a struggle ever since to actually get on the same page spiritually. Its a continual struggle to decide under which religion, philosophy, and way of life we want to raise our family in. He's been more diligent than I and I've finally realize that I had no longer been on a active search for knowledge. I'd given up. I was stagnant. And now its time to move.
So this Ramadan I make intention to devote myself to Remembering Allah. I intend to fast and pray and allow Allah to bestow the barakah (blessings) of enlightenment onto me as he'd done once before.
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